Are We Having Affairs? The Ditches We put Ourselves In

We are born on this earth presented with what seems to be concrete and the way to live our lives as good citizens on this planet. Over time; we learn not to rock the boat, not to go beyond the lines and our limits are created and we follow. Some of us are shunned in childhood for being a rebel or ‘bad’ individual and cross those lines and go against the grain or rock that boat and are told when we think for ourselves; we are not good…do what everyone else is doing. We are sold a huge program and array of systems we don’t really know why we follow and sometimes our ancestors had to follow to survive…we do this for years and years, centuries and centuries and generations and generations. Not a question is asked and some if asked are severely punished until we follow ‘the way.’

This happens until we are grown and question certain systems set up in our lives we are told make us successful and acceptable and a good citizen through our religious, spiritual, affiliations or clubs and our elders and also our school systems. We create laws and we have to follow them. Now being in the United States of America…which is not united because each state may have different laws and rules to abide by and also each county as well…how confusing for a foreigner and or person from another state to grasp. How do we fit in? Why do we need to?

Why can’t we be ourselves? Why don’t we be ourselves? We are all flawed human beings. Since covid; it is another awakening for surrendering of our voice and choice. Do we ever come up to the light or keep our heads buried in the sand with the trained patterns of fear drilled into us that we feel, numb, powerless, unhappy, anxious or unhappy or depressed? The arts and music were created to bring us back to our own spark of creative force and fire within us. We have had our flames almost extinguished and dimmed and it’s time we realized that the way to gain power is to control the masses. To control the masses; create the illusion of fear, chaos and doubt and lack and division as the answer. Over time, you will see that it’s taking a toll on us globally. We are not getting in touch with our hearts and minds in what is the truth and seeking it anymore. We’ve given our power away and you can give it away to a country, to a leader or your own family member or spouse. Then when you lose yourself; you blame the outer influences but you forget how it manifested in your brain, your mind and you gave in. Claim your power back by thinking for yourself. Not believing conspiracy, suspicion and tools of defeat to humankind by adhering that violence is needed and fighting amongst us will give us what we want if we dominate and or kill each other. This doesn’t matter the higher ups with the money, controlling the way we can eat, what health alternatives and ways of healing, our way of living in an earth we are poisoning by our own production.

When my husband and I created our healing with the arts center, gallery and event rental space; we had this dream that the arts could help our family heal in our tough times and it did so we wanted to share it with the community. We thought we could create  a space of freedom and healing with your own transformation utilizing the immersion of healing in different aspects of the arts and it was working on many who could testify positive results. It was magical to see people come out of their heads in the sand.

I wanted to explain to you because it’s like having an affair. It’s exciting the way you treat the affair; no attachment, pleasure, exploration and ecstasy and joy and our space became a distraction to some folks who came to see our space as an experience instead of the maintenance of your own mind, body and soul. It’s like you come for the 5 senses, eat, drink, create, laugh, be entertained and you feel the immersiveness presented in the message that yes life can be pleasurable. But it became just like an affair; exciting. We became the one night stand of the temporary ‘fix’ that, like a sex worker, was orgasmic but temporary. This is where people lose the message…life can be exciting, joyful, full of experiences and pleasure by your own mindset and not dependent on others or our program. It was meant for life maintenance. People lost the message during covid….and it is a long crawl back. People are walking but asleep to their own feelings, their choices, their life and giving up their choices and demands of a better life. Sure the growing pains is what is happening now. We must resurrect ourselves from the dead. We must not keep our heads down and find something to expand on the negative feelings to reinforce them. It’s like going to the gym; if you do the exercises that help your body but don’t commit; then you won’t benefit because you don’t self love yourself.

The years of awakening are present; we’ve identified the problems but we are expanding on the negative and immersing ourselves in that negative. We need to be good and tired. The chaos is a good thing, the divisiveness is a good thing because we have to go through growing pains as a planet in order to understand that war, lack, power, destruction and greed don’t help us live in a planet meant to thrive together and respecting and acknowledging our differences and coming into communicating our priorities as a whole. We want clean water, clean air, clean utilities, clean production and truth in all of this and the dismantling is happening to old systems. Humans are the stubborn folks on earth and the ego or preprogrammed falling in the line methods don’t work for any of us anymore. 

So I tell my husband; allow the transformation of dismantling and chaos to surface and slowly people will see these are ditches that we are in were dug by our ancestors and society and when we take the step to pull ourselves upright out of the ditch is by recognizing we are in a ditch to nowhere and question why do I feel disconnected, depressed and alone; it’s because the systems are breaking down…human and animal sacrifices and our planet in war zones are being sacrificed for the common good as a great lesson to avoid and stop and desist destruction. It’s when we ask that question than leads to another how do I get myself out of the ditch and make my way out of all these religious, spiritual, governmental, scholastic, clubs/affiliative ditches…one at a time and you get your shovel and start shoveling away all the limitation like weeds overtaking a building or structure and remove these…keep moving until you feel you’ve gotten rid of some ditches and dig your way out and you will find that you can be different, you are unique but we are all the same…we want a quality of life for all, we want peace, we want a healthy planet, a healthy community and cosmos and create systems that embrace all. Dismantle Indian reservations and give a basic quality of life. Create no more systems to jail people rehabilitate and keep them thriving by giving them hope and not a record for all their life that they pay for crimes that don’t equate to planned murders to them. Turn empty buildings into community rehabilitative little communities creating jobs and having people with a positive purpose and thriving. Turn prisons into schools for alternative learners and addiction overcoming methods…Look at European rehab programs and benefits. Have a better health system that embraces alternative and western/eastern/northern,southern medicines that have been around for centuries with positive results. We need to claim back our quality of life and not make all the systems an affair…sometimes, the longer you stay in a affair you risk losing everything you hid from your friends, or family or community that think you are the same person and one who doesn’t rock the boat, step out of line and be a risk taker. An affairs purpose is for a short term but never a solution. I salute the sex workers for their purpose dealing with folks in their lowest point in life enlisting them for their work. May they gain insurance and health care and protection against sex trafficking and forced slavery. Anyway, know that affairs are just that and think, are you having an affair with your religious system, your scholastic system, with your spiritual system and your affiliative systems? Are these feeling uninspirational? Good because it’s time for you to be you and get the real help you need and expand and explore with the creative spark that lay low or off in your belly. The belly is your power center and you need to change things within your mindset to take actions with your body and get back to your soul set to walk this earth in your temple of flesh. Honor, bravery and commitment to self love is needed now more than ever. I wish you luck and take a ditch at a time to dig yourself out if need be. Congratulate yourself and maintain each ditch one at a time with the quality of life where you question why you are doing something, why you believe something, why are you miserable and what you need to change…There’s your personal spiritual shovel waiting for you to get out of the rut you’ve put yourself in and think for yourself again, laugh for yourself, play for yourself, work for yourself and inner peace and your passions to come alive again and get great mentors to take you there…Be the Braveheart you need to be and this is the year for it. I wish you well Warrior. Time to get to work. Much loving light courageous hugs and we can do this together globally.