Drop your Torches of Limitations: Get Rid of Judging & Grudging by Blue Thunder 4/20/2022
Hello Beautiful Self Transformers;
4/20/2022 by Blue Thunder
I appreciate you visiting my blog. Social media can be a useful tool to reach out and comfort and say that you are not alone but sometimes it can turn into a distraction in living your truth and not appreciating moments in life you don’t need constant selfies for. It can be a tool to share joy, love, and positive moments in your life and share it with others. It can also invite unnecessary judging and grudging. Judging and grudging is harmful to self and others.
When we live in the past; we judge and grudge others. We hold onto things in our lives that the NOW isn’t existent. We listen from others like in my life that were damaged from other damaged ancestors. Their ghosts tell us how to behave and conduct ourselves but they themselves had no positive reference. Trauma, abandonment and lack of direction and clarification makes us believe that being a ‘good boy’ or ‘being a good girl’ from our damaged ancestors can lead to limitations in living a happy and fruitful life. We keep looking back when we need to look forward in so many ways because we never free ourselves. We never forgive others and let go of unhealthy attachments and the realization our ancestors were surviving and trying to cope with a multitude of traumas and abandonments or abuse.
When you are a parent; the lines of unhealthy ties of coping skills make us crazy. Literally, crazy and feeling so alone and no help or compassion in sight. We look to our ancestors again for them to be better and then get us on track as children. Sadly, that is a childlike wish that is innocent and not unreasonable but referencing damaged ancestors for a new outlook and to pull you out of your own pit of darkness won’t get out of that pit. The only one who can do it; is YOU. You have the ‘gift’ of your ancestors that taught you hard lessons, painful ones and the beauty of this pain is the gift you get from them is not the gift you can accept. The gift is transforming oneself by therapy, by spiritual and alternative healing combinations that you choose to assist you. Their gift is a gift of choice for you. You don’t have to be like the unhealthy behaviors and decisions of your damaged ancestors; you can choose to explore a happier and healthier way of being and healing.
Celebrate that beauty of the choice in the NOW and forward. If I hadn’t gone into Shamanism; I would have been so lost I shared it with someone very close to me. I care about this person and also my own family members and others in my family. I want them to see beyond the veil of darkness and agony; there is joy, freedom and hope. That you can carve a new path to positive and happy experiences of your choosing and heal yourself doing this to yourself often. We cannot live in the past and listen to the ghosts who directed, taught and guided us from fear. For example, myself as one, my Mother had felt abandoned in the Japanese American War in the Philippines at 3 years old. Her Dad was taken away, losing their house, being used as human shields and her mother trying to dress like an elderly woman to get food, water, etc. She was caught and jailed and violated by the Japanese soldiers. War is horrible and humans do horrible things when armed with weapons without proper direction or truth. She had to cope with the traumas and put my Mother in a convent with Nuns to be safe and educated. Ten years passed and my Mother was about to become a nun in service to God. The Church was her family and she knew no type of proper homelife like in orphanages. Her mother finally convinced our damaged Grandpa who was abused too to sponsor her to the USA at 13 years old. She lost the formative years of guidance and nurturing in a healthy homelife. She learned and used to repeat to me: “Donna, you cannot travel alone because you will be raped.” That stands out as trauma and abandonment for my Mother and she guided and directed us all even my brothers to do the same agreement. We make agreements with our damaged ancestors that make no sense. Our ancestors think they are keeping us safe but creating unnecessary fear without the communication and clarification even as teens or adults that we hold onto as false truths. We try to be ‘good children’ but we don’t know any better. And when your home is filled with trauma because both your parents are damaged by their own parents and before that; it is a good lesson not to take their gifts of ‘fear’ ‘anger and ‘abandonment’ as yours to hold all your life. It is good to let go of the notion that an unhealthy torch is not to be held onto or passed on. You need to know that as that child; it wasn’t your fault if told, you didn’t create it and accept no more the blame or scapegoating if you were told this. You were a child and you referenced the person you thought had their head together, knew better and had a healthy view of life to guide you. Healing and forgiveness will occur if you are dedicated and focused on being healthy.
It takes lots of work and your own self love and searching for truth within. Hopefully, during Covid, many people gained their inner strength and answers to carving their own paths of light instead of digging a grave held onto trauma and pain. You don’t need pain, you don’t need trauma, you don’t need fear and you don’t need limitations or the darkness. YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY AND YOU ARE THE MANIFESTORS OF THIS DREAM INTO REALITY. It’s real when you get help, accept and let go. It takes several tries and focus. Sometimes, you feel you are down in a dark pit of sadness, regret and anger and you have to take your Higher Self that pulls you out. Tell yourself you are worthy of love and you are love and please place and breathe this into your heart, cells, body, lungs and mind. YOUR SOUL NEEDS TO LIFE THE LIFE YOU ARE DESIGNED FOR…LOVE, PASSION, SELF EMPOWERMENT AND CHOICE TO LET GO OF UNHEALTHY TORCHES OF LIMITATION. DROP THE TORCH OF LIMITATION AND LIVE A LIFE THAT YOU ARE FREE AND STRONG. Believe and be. You are blessed and I am to share this with you.
TIME TO BE REAL. LOVING LIGHT HUGS AND PRAYERS FOR YOUR RELEASES AND DROPPING OF YOUR OWN TORCHES OF LIMITATIONS. YOU ARE LOVED, YOU ARE VALUED, YOU ARE SEEN AND MOST OF ALL – YOU ARE ALL POWERFUL WITHOUT EGO OR IMPOSITIONS TO OTHERS. STAND IN YOUR OWN BEING OF LIGHT. Loving Light Hugs and honor to you on your journey to your happiness.
