Meeting my Own Challenges and Owning them Shadowwork by Blue Thunder

Meeting my Own Challenges and Owning Them August 8, 2026 meditation/journey Blue Thunder

I grounded myself into the Earth and let go of people, places, situations and things in order to be present in the NOW for this journey to continue with Two Goddesses. One greets me earlier in the journey into the Underworld to do my Shadowwork with Lilith (Taking your Seat of Power) and the Goddess of the Universal Lesson of the Time - The Sphinx (Meeting Your Challenge).

After breathing and surrounding my Earthly body with Pure White light and go on this journey with the intention to gain Pure Light Protection and Insight to my Self Growth with my Challenges. I also surround my Sacred body connected to my Earthly with the Light Thread with the Pure White Light and my protectors appear…My Initial Power Animal the GroundHog which she teaches the medicine of thinking beyond the old patterns to resolve and grow. Then the Bear automatically appears and sweeps my Sacred Body up and carries me like a cub by the scruff of my neck but there is no pain or blood with the Sacred Body and the Temple Dragon that Protects the Treasure of the Earth come together as the Bear holds me like a cub and there is a short trip into the Upperworld and then back down an earthly opening and tunnel to the Underworld which is not hell…that’s in the mind.  We ride down this tunnel like a long water slide into the realm where Lord Ayahuasca is and I gift him to enter this Domain of Shadowwork Golden Roses and he welcomes me back. I see cobwebs up high and in the areas of the Underworld…I do not know what they symbolize until later. I then come to the River of Styx and I see the Skullman and the River awaiting the crossing of the other side wailing as they await their divinely timed boat ride. I gift him an amulet as he recognizes me again. It has been a long time for this work but it is indeed well needed to be whole. Embracing our Shadow and healing it with your own realization, dedication, truth and effort is a journey of light on your Path.

I look around the dormant volcanic world and see a throne and there sits the Goddess Lilith and she asks me to create my own Seat of Power. I do and it is silver metal with inlaid lapis lazuli stones and white stones with patterns of coral asI sit in my throne. I am beside Lilith and she tells me it is time to work on what your power is in this time of life in my 60s. She speaks: “It is a time of knowing what you are letting go and what you attach to. You have patterns she tells me that create my anxiety as a mother, wife and service provider that I no longer need to fulfill. I can let go of my children, my husband and others in the community and all that I encounter as I relinquish & surrender my thought I am responsible for their work and path even more.”

 I find I am okay with this onward positive journey lately of letting go and keep letting go. It is my responsibility to take care of myself and not function in the role others or myself are used to. I realize and she continues that like the cobwebs you have created a ‘trap’ of mental patterns and behavior to interfere with other people’s path out of overdoing and overprotection. That letting people be uncomfortable with figuring out their resolve and path is part of their growth and nothing to do with me with them on their own path. I understand my path is allowing others to be uncomfortable and releasing the thought that I am responsible for the patterns created by my actions, words and behavior from childhood trauma. I am no longer there and to be reminded to stay in the NOW is essential now.

I see with my third eye the cobwebs of my own that I trapped myself as the victim and yet I am also the spider the predator…creating these webs and attachments to the point I cannot move and realize that I must release and clear out the webs in the first place to be free as the spider is the wisdom keeper and reminder that I am all what I think I am and I am also divinely made and powerful staying in my truth and releasing. It feels very freeing with this thought. We can be the victim and the power of tormenting and consuming that state of victimhood or I can be free and learn from this and move onwards like the spider weaving my own webs of empowerment and releases of the old cobwebs and patterns and attachments to the image of false responsibility for others. I then take my spirit body and become the Golden 1000 Petal Lotus and spin removing all these cobwebs as an exercise and initial step in my spiritual lesson and path and start fresh. As I seek the Goddess Sphinx; she has been the Temple Dragon all along; Telling me: "The many parts of animals she is gives her the possibility to choose that animal and shapeshift and she choose the dragon on this journey to teach me today. The Dragon is a sacred animal that likes truth. I am glad to see her teach me more of my own shapeshifting that keeps occurring for the last few months. It is confirmation to stay on my path and dedicate myself to allowing myself to treat myself with care and step away from issues and lessons that others need to do on their own….The Spinx continues…”yes, they are uncomfortable (your old patterns and webs of mental entrapment) and tells me as if she reads my mind, and ..”yes it leads to growth. Allow the discomfort in others so they can think for themselves and resolve themselves into their manifestation of taking their own Seat of Power.” To see the cobwebs of the past dissolve with each step away from repetitive disheartening choices in people, roles and places and know our own place in this Path we have chosen on Earth.”

 I felt so free and I gifted out of gratitude to Lilith a necklace with the Hand of Fatima (Hamsa) as protection with the stones of white, blue and red finger tips to her. I then gift Goddess Sphinx in gratitude a necklace so multifaceted of the same of the Hands of Fatima (Hamsa) and it is time to go and share this energy with my Earthly Body. I give thanks and my Bear swoops me up to ride on the Goddess Sphinx as a Dragon back to Earth to continue my dedication to sacred self and allow others and myself to grow and welcome discomfort to take the breath and time to find out what can be resolved without my interference on their path for those I love and for those I do not know. I pray we are in gratitude for these difficult times spurring us to seek truth, to seek resolve and to know the difference between Power without ego in peace and Power misused can cause dysfunction and stagnancy in aligning with the Universal Lesson of the Time to Meet our Challenges and take our Own Seat of Power and be whole and being okay with not feeling and acting responsible for others who so deserve to empower themselves in their own journey without judgment and interference. Thank you Goddess Lilith, Goddess Sphinx, Lord Ayuhuasaca and Skullman and the Underworld dimension of shadow healing. Thank you Ground Hog my Gracious One and the Brother Bear and Goddess Dragon Formed Sphinx for this lesson. I am grateful, I am honored and able to share the possibility again of choosing the path of light, freedom and non interference. Much loving light hugs and peace to you and all. Aho.